Starting to second guess everything

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HEY,

SO IN A FEW WEEKS IM SUPPOSE TO SCHEDULE MY THREE ROUNDS OF EMBO THE SX IN MARCH.
IM STARTING TO SECOND GUESS EVERYTHING..NOW I DONT KNOW IF I WANT TO GO THROUGH WITH IT ...IM GETTING NERVOUS AND I'M JUST SO STRESSED WITH EVERYTHING. MY BIGGEST FEAR IS ENDING UP WITH A DEFECT KNOWING THAT NOW I HAVE NO PROBLEMS NOW JUST THE MIGRAINES AND SOME VISUAL CHANGES THAT COME AND GO.
AM I SELFISH TO FEEL THIS WAY? I KNOW ALOT OF PPL SAY I SHOULD BE GRATFUL AND JUST PRAY BUT I CANT HELP BUT FEEL SO ANNOYED AND PISSED

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Thanks :) It been pretty hard for me as for everyone else in this group . All three docs say this is the best way to go or I could leave it alone and wait to see if anything happens.
Its great to find people who can relate..it makes me feel better that i can vent without being judged of looked at like im crazy.
A cup of tea, movie and a prayer...thanks..